Beloved brothers and sisters, My name is Fabienne.
I would like to thank Father Thomas who invited me in this retreat center.
I come from Europe to witness that Christ resurrected me.
In 2013 I have been appointed as President of the virtual community “Missionaries of Divine Mercy”. It is located in the Divine mercy shrine in Spain. The spiritual father of this community is the rector of the shrine.
I have also my own spiritual counselor who is Director of Diocesan spiritual center and Director of Diocesan mass media. He asked me to go in the entire world to give talks on my conversion.
My parents had me baptized a few days after my birth. I followed all the catechism classes and I made my first Communion. My mother, a holy woman, taught me to pray every day. However, after my communion I no longer attended the Catholic Church until 1996, the date on which Jesus came to save me. I was 32 years old.
I will tell you a little about the life that I led during those years, far from Our Lord Jesus-Christ and far from C. Church.
As soon as the age of 15, my life took a tumble. I began to frequent bars and practised tarot cards reading, numerology and astrology.
When I finished my school studies, I spent my weekends in discos, smoking pot, drinking alcohol.
It is during one of these nights in a night club that I met a boy and, after a few months, we decided to live common law. As we were not married in the C. Church, our souls were uniting with impure spirits. After 5 years, I left him and moved to another city.
Sometime later I went to a spiritual center to listen to the teachings of a guru. One day he proposed to experience spiritism and, innocent as I was, I accepted ! And there, I began to meet with mediums who would go into trance, who received supposed messages from the saints. Had I known that it was fallen spirits who were delivering these messages, I would have immediately left the spiritual center. I believed in it and also believed in karma and reincarnation.
I made many major wrong choices of paths each time that I was a follower of horoscope, palm reading, yoga, Kundalini, esoteric meditation, past-life regression, magnetism, New Age healers, positive thinking, astral projection, New Age breathing, reading auras, opening of chakras, Numerology, fortune telling, telepathy, pendulum, all kinds of magic, hypnosis, all forms of healing through energies, crystals, music and colours, meditations on New Age music and reiki which the bishops of the USA warned against.
As for Yoga, a priest explained to me that this practise opened the door of my soul to evil spiritual entities. Yoga is not a simple practice. It belongs to a true religion from which it is hard to separate oneself. It made me adore divinities that had spiritual functions. The priest explained me that yoga is not a catholic practise and he told me : If you practice yoga you adore divinities and you betray God as God first commandment is : Exodus 20:3 « You shall have no other gods before me.
I also spoke to you of Kundalini : The Kundalini is a powerful energy lodged in the sacrum bone at the base of the back. When it is aroused, it climbs along the spine and works its way from chakra center to center right up to he coronary chakra located above the head.
I lived the experience of kundalini and yoga and I gave power to Satan to enter into me and lead me from the interior.
I also affiliated with the Order of Rosicrucians AMORC.
AMORC means : Ancien Mystical Order Rosae Crucis. It is an esoteric order that is not of God.
I Quickly began to receive small booklets for study.
In this Order I studied different things such as the psychic body of man, stellar travelling, human aura, chakras, vocal sounds, mantras…
With those studies, in my body, I experienced that Satan had placed his energy within me with his power and I began to tremble and I heard Satan saying to Jesus : “She is mine”. So Jesus said to me : I am the way, the truth and the life”.
I realized that I betrayed Jesus with new age teachings as they are not compatible with catholic doctrine. Catholic church says reincarnation does not exist and that everyone is judged immediately after death. I did not know that Catechism of C. Church teaches us that after death our soul could go to heaven, purgatory or hell.
I also went on the Vatican website and I found a Christian reflection on the “New Age” that is called “ Jesus Christ the bearer of water of life”. It is from Pontifical Council for Culture and Pontifical Concil for interreligious dialogue. I studied this nice reflection and I realized that the devil had deceived me with all the new age practises I used, as they are against catholic doctrine.
A few weeks later, I met a man in the Rosicrucian Order, who had been single for many years as his wife had left him for another man.
A few months later, while looking at a poster of the Sacred heart of Jesus, I heard His voice that said to me : « My holy wounds will save you » ! The wounds of His painful Passion.
Soon after, during a pilgrimage, I accepted to be reinstated in the Catholic Church.
Upon my return to France, Satan attacked me a lot and with the man I met we decided to get a civil wedding. We were not able to get married in the Catholic Church because he was already previously married in the Church.
Two days after the wedding, I took a separate room because Jesus had come to remove me saying : I ask for reparation of your sin” and He showed me cruel eyed demons to whom I was bound because of my sin of adultery. So I shouted : Jesus Have mercy on Me. These demons were linked to each of my sins. (sins of the flesh, new age teachings etc…)
At that time, Holy spirit illuminated my conscience and made me see all my thougts that were not in His love, all my participation in evil, all my evil feelings, my criticisms and judgements about others. I saw all the evil I had done to my neighbour and I have suffered much. So I cried out to God and told him : Jesus, have mercy on me. All the people that I caused to stumble in my life, from now on, I will pray for them and have masses celebrated so that one day we will be reunited in paradise.
I then gave Jesus all my bad choices and their consequences and He himself came to repair my own errors of the road of life with his graces and his love. God is love with a capital L.
And I again called to Him by telling Him : Heal me Jesus, heal me, Father of Love. He answered : Meditate on my Passion and there I understood all His love for my soul.
After my marriage, I picked up the Catechism of the Catholic Church and the Bible and I discovered the commandments of God and it is then that I discovered that since the age of fifteen I was living in mortal sins. I realized that I was now living in the sin of adultery.
So I looked for a priest confessor who received me very charitably and I explained the suffering state of my soul. The priest asked me to live with my husband as brother and sister and added that I could then receive communion and go to confession only if I remained chaste, living with my husband in two separate rooms. He then explained that divorce does not dissolve a marriage and that my husband remained married before God to his lawful wife until death do them part, even if his wife had remarried.
Having taken leave of the priest, I returned home and explained to my husband that which the Catholic Church required of me. He accepted the situation as it involved the salvation of his soul. I then explained to him that I was leaving the Rosicrucian Order AMORC.
Convinced that I was on a wrong path, I began to tear to pieces all the Rosicrucian books, all the books on numerology, palm reading, tarot cards, books on spiritism, and the books on New Age or even the books about occult sciences. I got rid of them and once a priest came to bless the house and the Blessed Virgin was enthroned in the home, calm returned home. I substituted all my old books for the Bible, the lives of the saints.
Given that I greatly suffered in my interior because of my many sins, under the movement of the Holy Spirit, I began to have masses said for my soul in order to find peace.
During the celebration of these masses, the Holy Spirit would bring forth to my conscience all the sins that I had committed since my childhood. So I went to confession.
The priest received me with great charity but he was slightly stunned to see that I had with me so many sheets of paper on which I had made note of my sins. I had written them out so as to not forget them. You can imagine the number of sins I have accumulated in my soul since my first communion. I confessed all about which I have spoken to you. The priest listened to me with patience and charity and since then, I have been going to confession regularly.
I then went before the tabernacle for my penance and there, with great joy, I understood that my sins were blotted out thanks to the Precious Blood of Jesus.
What a grace is that of the sacrament of confession.
Dear brothers and sisters, Jesus has erased my sins. He consumed my miseries. He sustained me in my weakness.
After having many times received the sacrament of reconciliation, I met many priests who prayed many prayers of deliverance related to my dabbling with New Age practices and I also have often received the sacrament of the anointing of the sick as I was in a critical state due to New Age practices.
Different sacraments helped in my healing and I was so attracted to Jesus that I would spend afternoons close to the tabernacle at church.
During these times, I began to make the Stations of the Cross every day so as to liberate souls from purgatory and I told myself that I would dedicate my life to praying for the salvation of all the souls.
I also begin to pray the Holy rosary every day and at the end of this prayer I added a little prayer that Jesus gave to sister consolata Betrone, a capucin clare : « Jesus Mary I love you, save souls. » Jesus promised her that each time we recite this little prayer he will save one soul.
Archbishop Giovanni Saldarini has inaugurated sister consolata betrone’s canonical process for the case of beatification in Turin in ITALY in 1995.
Jesus told Sister Consolata Betrone : Do you know why I don’t allow you many vocal prayers ? Because the act of love is more fruitful. A « Jesus mary I love you, save the souls » hails for a thousand curses. Remember that a perfect act of love involves the eternal salvation of a soul. So, regret loosing a single JESUS, MARY I LOVE YOU, SAVE SOULS». From this moment, I began to recite every day hundreds of Jesus Mary I love you save souls.
Dear Brothers and sisters, Assisted by my first spiritual father, a Dominican priest, we decided that I would leave the man and live home to be a witness in the world of Divine Mercy.
I began to record conferences that I gave about the message of Divine Mercy to Saint Faustina. You surely know the words of the Divine Mercy taken from the diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska (now Saint Faustina).
« I am offering people a vessel with which they are to keep coming for graces to the fountain of mercy.. That vessel is this image with the signature: « Jesus I trust in you ». (PD 327)
« By means of this Image I shall be granting many graces to souls; so, let every soul have access to it ». (PD 570)
« I promise that the soul that will venerate this image will not perish ». (PD 48)
« I also promise victory over [its] enemies already here on earth, especially at the hour of death. I Myself will defend it as My own glory ». (PD 48)
« The two rays denote Blood and Water. The pale ray stands for the Water which makes souls righteous. the red ray stands for the Blood which is the life of the souls… » (PD 299)
« These two rays issued forth from the very depths of My tender mercy when My agonized Heart was opened by a lance on the Cross ». (PD 299)
I personally try to recite the Divine Mercy chaplet daily at 3.00 p.m. because Jesus promised the following:
« Oh, what great graces I will grant to souls who say this Chaplet. (Diary, 848) .
« Whoever will recite the chaplet, they will receive great mercy at the hour of death. Even if there were a sinner most hardened, if he were to recite this chaplet only once, he would receive grace from My infinite mercy » (diary, 687).
« It pleases Me to grant everything souls ask of Me by saying the chaplet.
When hardened sinners say it, I will fill their souls with peace, and the hour of their death will be a happy one.
when a soul sees and realizes the gravity of its sins, when the whole abyss of the misery into which it immersed itself is displayed before its eyes, let it not despair, but with trust let it throw itself into the arms of My mercy, as a child into the arms of its beloved mother (…).
Tell them no soul that has called upon My mercy has been disappointed or brought to shame. I delight particularly in a soul that has placed its trust in My goodness.
when they say this chaplet in the presence of the dying, I will stand between My Father and the dying person, not as the just Judge but as the merciful Savior » (Diary, 1541).
« At the hour of their death, I defend as My own glory every soul that will say this chaplet; or when others say it for a dying person, the indulgence is the same.
When this chaplet is said by the bedside of a dying person, God’s anger is placated and his unfathomable mercy envelops the soul » (Diary, 811).
You see, I told Jesus : I give you my « Yes » because I would so like that all souls know your burning love. I give you all my old choices and their consequences so that you, the Love, you can consume them in your Fire of tenderness and in the flames of Your mercy.
Jesus told Saint Faustina : I send you to the whole of humanity with my mercy. I do not want to punish the entire wounded humanity, but I desire to heal it by clasping it to my merciful heart…
While it is still time, let mankind have recourse to the source of my mercy, for them to benefit of the Blood and Water that gushed for them.
I want to pour out my inconceivable graces on the souls that trust in my mercy.
Let them approach this sea of mercy with great confidence: sinners will obtain justification and the just will be confirmed in the good.
The one who has placed his trust in my mercy, at the hour of death, I will fill his soul with my divine peace.
The graces of my mercy are drawn with the help of a unique means and that is trust.
The greater the trust, the more the soul receives.
Souls with boundless trust are a great joy to me, as I pour in their soul the entire treasure of my graces.
I rejoice that they ask for much, as it is my desire to give much and abundantly.
The soul that trusts in my mercy is the happiest as I personally take care of it.
Not one soul that calls upon my mercy has been deceived nor has experienced shame.
Dear brothers and sisters, I have experienced the sweetness of the Heart of Jesus when I receive His Body in communion.
Given that I know the importance of Holy Mass, I participate in it daily and I have great respect for God’s ministers. Priests are the apple of the eyes of Jesus.
Let us trust and tell Jesus: « Jesus, I trust in you ».
If God healed me, therefore then everybody can be saved. If one day you have committed sins such as abortion, addiction to drugs or alcohol, stealing, false witness, not keeping holy the Lord’s day, dishonoring ones parents, adultery, Pre-marital sex, lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy, pride, confess, truly repent and trust in Jesus mercy. No sin will exhaust the great mercy of God and the more we seek it, the more it increases. The greater the sinner, the more he has a right to the mercy of God.
Dear brothers and sisters, I hope that my testimony will help you to gain more light.
I would like to thank father Thomas who let me give my talk today.
May God bless him and protect him.
Praised be Jesus-Christ and be a thousand times blessed.